Assignment 5

What is life like at the age of eighteen years old? It is the age of making life choices, time for the realization of plans, dreams and hopes. It is the age of starting evaluating and choosing the right course to spend the leisure time, the time for making a foundation of the future.

What is life like for an eighteen year-old girl? I remembered I asked one of my friends, she said, “For a girl, it is the age of LOVE, it is the period when most of the young girls want to get married and start up a new family. It is the age when everything is just beginning and in 'blossom'.” I shocked, I stared at her sluggishly, I started thinking of the answer she gave me, I was wondering if she too desperate for the marriage as an eighteen year-old girl is totally too young for me to get into a marriage. “At the same time it is a very sensitive stage and dramatic changes can have a high impact on the further self-determination and values of a young girl,” she added.

I pasted a piece of a paper with the heading on the wall of my room, “I have a dream that” which already written across the top. I wish to gain back my own dream instead of keep asking for others about the life at the age of eighteen years old.

“Study Form Six as what your sister did as she was able to enter local University, it is such a right choice for you right now,” stated my father as he felt that I was struggling for my own future. I was standing in the middle of the road as what I studied the poem of “The Road Not Taken”, I have been out walking the woods and comes to two of the roads and I stand looking as far down each one as I could see. This is because many of my friends chose to go for the private colleges instead of STPM as they felt that it is definitely not the right choice for us who dislike buried in the books every single minute.

I cried, I screamed, I yelled, I made a phone call to everyone and I cried nonstop for few hours. I cried like a baby as all babies cry and fuss. Crying is important for babies and it is the first way of communication and such an important way to release tension, so do I. I was totally crumbled as it was such as an unacceptable fact. I admit that I am definitely not a bookworm and it is obvious to be stated as the main reason that I failed in my STPM.

“You lost something and now is the time for you to pick up another thing that you wanted,” my father reminded when he was reading newspaper in living room.

“What I lost? What will be the thing that I really wanted and wished to own actually?” muttering alone with the mind that filled with lots of question marks.

I walked into my room without my soul which already flown away since that day I cried like a baby. I looked up the wall and I saw that piece of paper which written “I have a dream that” for few minutes. A light bulb appeared in my mindset suddenly, “What is wrong with me? I should gain back my own dream!” muttering alone again. I should take action to gain back the dream which belongs to me although it might be located in that glorious land above the sky.

What is life like at the age of twenty one years old? It is the age of making life choices, time for the realization of plans, dreams and hopes. I am glad that I am not afraid to dream. I am pleased that I am not dreaming of my prince charming and how I will save him from the dragon.

People say dreams never do come true, but they are wrong, I say they do. I knew it as I smile no matter how hard is my work torture me always. I knew it as I smile because I dream of my future and marvel at my pride since the day I decided to choose mass communication.

What I feel that is I have made a wise decision on my future road although I could not get a flying color result in STPM, but at least I am able to know the actual thing that I really wanted. Therefore, I always try my best in every single task in order to remind myself not to repeat the same mistake that I did in the past. My college life get totally different if compared with the Form Six high school life as I am taking the course that I am really interested in. I have put so much efforts and always pay fully attention as well as preparations either in assignment or presentation. I used to take my past failure as the main motivation to encourage myself from times to times. I remembered my father told me that every single failure or even mistake may help in the growing process, thus take it as another chance to inspire yourself to do better in the future.

Deep inside my heart, I told myself, I have to thank my own failure in STPM, for if without the unacceptable fact, I would never ever found my future road. In other words, it became the turning point in my life as it taught me to live stronger as well as tougher although something may altered the usual routine but still we have to find an appropriate way to fix it. It is such a good thing which taught me never ever give up and having optimistic thinking but not continue blaming myself on the mistake I did in the past which brings nothing at all.